This song is a bit of a strange one for me and if you would ask me why I wouldn't really be able to answer. The closest thing I can come to explain it is that it feels like I didn't write it and someone else did. I wrote it like a week ago and the arrangement for it all came together very easily and quickly. In a crowed room I saw it all Your warm smile was my downfall In that moment I truly died On the second chorus of Last Nite Tripping outside with the smokers Nodding replies as I slowly broke As I try to connect the dots And slowly see they were there all along I tried to forget how many times I've let the feelings truly drown Crying in the car looking out Just to make sure no one can catch my eyes Light on my face in a dark bedroom Not even the covers keep me warm As I scroll through our photos But they've started to change in meaning Feel my heart for what it is For not all that bleeds has a home Feel my heart for what it is For not all that bleeds has a home For I can't love you by myself But I can't love anybody else An atom bomb to the heart But I gotta get up and go to work Change the sound of my ringtone For it doesn't excite me anymore Connect the phone, set the alarm Is this all I can do? This is all i can do For I can't love you by myself But I can't love anybody else Feel my heart for what it is For not all that bleeds has a home Feel my heart for what it is For not all that bleeds has a home Feel my heart for what it is For not all that bleeds has a home For I can't love you by myself But I can't love anybody else But I can't love myself anymore

I've always wanted to write one of those like long list type songs, something like A Hard Rain's A-Gonna Fall by Bob Dylan. Not that I'd ever active something as great like that but that was the spirit that started out the lyrics of this song. As I was working on it I wanted to mix the mundane moments with the impactful ones. Slowly, I made the entire thing fit with the story of one person's single day just kinda scrabbled and out of order as if they themselves are telling it to you through a conversation. The chorus type bit is maybe a little too on the nose but for now it will have to do I guess. When the laundry is out and my battery is low As you call back but a no is a no As I eat lunch all alone In a crowed room away from home When I'm left on hold for too long and learn the lines to a song As David died all alone I sit in the park and feel the sun It's been a long day my friend It's been a long day When you fall in love too soon Buy a hat and cheap perfume As I pick at a bruise for too much and watch the blood gleam in the sun When I buy new jeans and read the news Start to cry on the tube As I drink too much and get that text Start a new job I wish we'd connect It's been a long day my friend It's been a long day When it's goodbye and check the train Look at the time and start pacing As a fear the world and wear a mask Brush my teeth and fill up the gas When it's already late and I've spelt it wrong Hear you're voice on the phone As I walk alone and look back I won't see you again and that is that It's been a long day my friend it's been a long day When it doesn't load and the wifi is off Take a picture of the back As I hang my coat place my shoes Hear a noise in the other room When it's one a.m. at A & E Read the signs on the wall As I smile back at the cashier I wonder how long she's worked here It's been a long day my friend It's been a long day When I don't get up on time Forget the keys by the door As I send a bit block of text Read the reply and leave it on read When I forget my lunch in the fridge I go outside to buy something As I stare outside from my room I think of how I won't see you again It's been a long day my friend It's been a long day It's been a long day my friend It's been a long day

This one is pretty self explanatory. Sometimes a seed is planted into you from when you are young and it's very difficult to get rid of it. I find this topic in general difficult to talk about but I've managed to lay it out pretty clearly in music form on this. In a way it's easier this way. Never liked my body always fooled myself Thinking I'd get past this by myself Looking in the mirror is an awful duty Never been to keen with photography I don't even have to try to remember when it was The first the seed started sowing Down at Chuck's big house on his ninth birthday We jumped in the pool and came out again He said I don't wanna be rude I don't wanna be mean But when I first meet you you were just like me Now look at yourself look at that belly You've really changed since you've meet me I remember looking down at that wet body In a very different way and I started to see I noticed everyone else I noticed me I started to think this must be what they see Oh la la la fuck you Chuck La la la fuck you Chuck As I hit my teens it didn't seem fun To go to the pool for a quick swim I covered myself with a towel all the time I pulled my shirt up against the wind I developed many tricks to hide it all away But it didn't really work but I tried the same Everybody knew but no one said a thing I have a wonderful family and some great friends Oh la la la but not you Chuck La la la not you Chuck As I got skinner and my body really changed Something deep inside of me stayed within That little tiny voice is load and clear It talks away right in the mirror If I could shape-shift or even disappear It wouldn't change much it would still be there It's getting better and I'm starting to see That what must really change is inside me but Oh la la la fuck you Chuck La la la fuck you Chuck It's getting better and I'm starting to see That what must really change is inside me

This is what feels like a very old song. I wrote it at some point in early 2019. I didn't think much of it and kind of left it go. It has some hallmarks of my then lyric writing which was way more abstract and vague that I am really turning away from now. Along with the inclusion of the violin (which was recorded also at that time) it really does have a indie folk type of feel. I wish I could be under the sea With a ghoul next to me I wish I could fly up in the sky With a shawl over my eyes So I can amend the little things That stop me from being him I hope I can stay in the darkest night With a ghost by my side I hope I can run with love in my eyes And a charm by my side So I can amend the little things That stop me from being him

I've never shied away from personal lyrics and I think in the past the biggest problem with my lyrics were that they were too vague. With this song I almost feel like I've gone a little too far and I shouldn't even release it. While he didn't die exactly a year ago today, he died on Halloween so close enough I guess, this song just kinda came out yesterday pretty quick. I think maybe it could help anyone who has lost a grandparent but who knows. I don't know how my parents would react to listening to this song so I don't think I will ever show them. At the end, I reference the Bob Dylan song "I Dreamed I Saw St. Augustine" mainly because it always reminds me of my grandfather (his name was Augostino). I think in reality some of the lines and the lyrics need a bit of a polish but I don't know if I'd want to go back inside this song and really do that. Grandpa died a year ago today I flew over for his funeral He was there but he wasn't there at all Lying still quiet and cold He got me my first guitar It didn't fit me but it was a start He remembered everybody's phone number by heart He remembered everybody's birthday by heart He joined the navy in his teens They'd wake up at a quarter to 5 If he wasn't ready then they'd get punished When the war came he travelled to Rome He got lucky so I didn't have to He got cunning so I didn't have to He got hungry so I didn't have to He got home all in one piece He went to church every Sunday He'd get angry at the TV display He'd always ask if we wanted something to eat He'd always ask me how was the Queen I dreamed I saw St. Augustine Alive with fiery breath He was the last of that generation to go And now I still miss him so

In the past few weeks after lunch I've started to walk in the park for roughly an hour. It's quite pleasant, I get to listen to a bit of music while I have a walk and move about. But just like anything you do at a regular interval you start noticing more things every time. Recently I have noticed quite a few people in my area that are doing the same thing (having a walk after lunch) and especially during these times it makes even more sense to have a regular habit. Anyway, I've noticed this one person who seems to do a post-lunch walk like me at the same time, so as I started writing this song (which was originally just about me walking in the park) I though it might be more interesting if I turned it more into someone obsessing over someone else at a distance. Lol I swear this is not autobiographical because otherwise it would be pretty creepy. I walk back like yesterday I back track the exact same way In the park you're there again Day after day it's you again I gotta know what you doing I gotta see how's it going You change your coat everyday Mine stays always the same The leaves brushed aside My head's full of lies We walk through the park But we always part ways Let me be on your own Let me be on your own I think up our story I come back at the same time I hope it's you again I prey it's you again The path through the park Branches out all the time We keep our distance You walk at my pace Let me be on your own Let me be on your own Today you turn around

I've hand this song for a very long time, at least some form of it. Recently I looked at the logic file and I noticed I had started writing some lyrics. It's about me and my girlfriends time during lockdown. She was and still is quite ill and I was there to take care of her. I think overall this might be a song I will work on more maybe, the ending can be polished and maybe with a bit more work it can be even better. Who knows. Start the kettle toast the bread Same old shit same old way I ask you how you've slept Not expecting much of an answer The days are all on repeat Yet they've never been the same I forgot to get your tea I'll go back down to get it Summer screams but fades away I wish everybody did the same But I will admit it freely I wouldn't rather be stuck with anyone else Anybody else Check the news and regret it Same old shit same old way I ask how you're feeling Not expecting much of an answer The night blends into day Sunlight seems optional I go for a shower Just to change my surroundings Winter creeps round the corner I wish the world would stop spinning But I will admit it freely I wouldn't rather be stuck with anyone else Anybody else Days go on and we keep going Days go on and we keep marching Days go on and we keep going Days go on and we keep marching Days go on and we keep going Days go on and we keep marching Days go on and we keep going Days go on and we keep marching

This is a very old song, from like my third album. I just happen to listen to it recently and thought it might be an interesting exercise to go over it and revamp the lyrics a little bit. I think ultimately you can't polish a turd but I tried my best I suppose. It's alright, definitely an interesting experience though to go through the lyrics carefully and see what slight adjustments I could make. You still linger in my eyes Humdrum through my senses That dirty old couch Has become an alter to us I redefine our meaning I still you with my blood I hideaway now but I can feel you glow Glowing in the sun glowing in the mud Going over messages like hamsters a wheel The shape of your mind My thoughts of you undress As memory resets and I Try to let you go You still sober my eyes Soften up my senses Picking up after work Had become the best part of my day Our thoughts now come twisted I feel you in my blood I can't see you now but I can feel you glow Glowing in my heart glowing in my mouth Deleting pictures while hiding in bed The shape of your mind My thoughts of you undress As memory resets and I Try to let you go

This is the original demo of the song that eventually became It's Quiet. I had this idea of writing a small song a day. Like a one minute song per day and put it on Instagram. It only lasted one day, this was the first song I did for that. Kinda successful I guess since the final version is like my most successful song. Got a feeling you're up to something Got a feeling you're up to nothing For I need to believe in you and You somehow believe in me Love love love is calling Love love love is quiet To Me

I haven't posted a song for a while. I just have been struggling a little bit with productivity. A lot has happened but I seem to have not been able to produce as much as I wanted to. Anyway, i quite like this one. I based the instrumental off of a cover I did of another song but I changed everything about it from the original so it truly is it's own song. I kinda teared up in the making of this too. That doesn't really happen to me, like ever. I can't think of another time. It's about going on a flight and leaving someone you care about behind. I pretty much wrote it in preparation for when I go back home for Christmas to see my parents. Feeling down and out Leaving town right now Just a star for a guide On this cold foggy night The seatbelt sign flicks on The cabin crew sits down And I stiff up Flying up and out Breaking clouds with hight Lights fade out of view Land turns to blue The seat pulls back in front I rest my head on the wall As it vibrates I can't keep it up I can't let you go Time splits the difference By the second I know I can't Go back to our Home where you are Warm and I can't Hold you tight Feeling down and out On this 737

This one is a little undercooked I think. But i feel like I really need to get back into the swing of writing more so I feel like this is as far as I can go without going completely mad and scrapping it entirely. The main guitar part I came up with at some point in 2019 and I just never managed to put some proper lyrics and make a full song out of it. I'm damn jealous of his costume Why I'm I always scared to put in the effort? Is he mad at me? Did he just storm off? Or is he going for a drink How do I get out of this conversation I'll just say that I need to go and pee I'm being loud but it's loud I'm shouting in your ear The bottle is empty why do I keep holding it? As my eye wonders over to you As your standing by the make-shift bar And you just smile back Why do I always end up talking to the same people? Wasn't I supposed to meet someone new? It's crowed in here the floor is a mess I'm sure glad I don't have to clean this up As my eye wonders over to you As your standing by the beer pong table And you just smile back

I ended up writing a song about those shitty days that you need to wake up real early before the sun rises. I was trying to write some lyrics and today my room was just really cold so I suppose that's were the initial inspiration came from. This one also could definitely benefit from some ironing out but I preferred pressing on with it and finishing it rather than get stuck on every little detail. Spiders creep through the cracks Floorboards sting once again Grab a jumper from the pile See my breath in the room Duvet cover sweet release Ticking bomb on my wrist Snooze the pass and exist Siren weep for my heart For my heart now Morning star up above Pillow song for my head Turn the knob wait for heat Steam the glass swipe at the mirror At the mirror now Brush the teeth reconcile Slightly damp shower towel Blink away collective sleep Summer socks just wont do Anymore anymore now Fix the shirt grab the book Keep your heart in your throat Grab a coat and the keys Get on top and now start your day Start your day now

These past few days I have been writing songs about longing for someone far away. Not much of a coincidence I suppose since we are all stuck in our houses right now not being able to meet people. I got the main guitar and melody for this from a really old demo from 2019. I think currently I'm just trying to finish up all these little songs and melodies that don't have words to them so that I can finally free them from my brain and be happy and done with them. I wish I could be there by your side Not strumming in the air here alone It's gonna be ok in a while Count the calendar days one at the time To be back, to be back In one room It's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright It's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright Changing out of clothes by your bed Now brushing teeth in two We keep calling al the time day in day out Keep watching films late at night To be back, to be back In one room It's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright It's gonna be alright it's gonna be alright

This song has been around for like a month or so. I quite like it and it's got a lot of independent parts that work together that somehow make this kinda really happy sound. It's a bit weirdly structured and I know that if I want it to be a proper release it will need to be worked on a lot. There are a lot of things that aren't jellying exactly how I'd like them yet but I'd say as a demo it does what it's supposed to do. At least I hope. Somebody help me I think I've lost myself Somebody find me I'm lost in the crowd As I'm feeling the weight of all my years And the hangovers keep on getting longer I don't know how I'll keep going I don't know how we'll keep going No one seems to want to stay up late And nothing good happens after 2 And everybody is moving further out And everybody is getting a garden I don't know how I'll keep going I don't know how we'll keep going

I put a ton of distortion (well at least for me) on this one to get that kinda of rough first take feel to it. To be honest it has a lot of that because I did do this one very quickly so excuse me for all the small mistakes and imperfections here and there. Yeah I miss going out to shows, the good and the bad. It's so fucking loud in my left ear I don't know how to get to you my dear Do I keep pushing with these drinks He's giving me the eye It's so fucking sticky on the floor Why does a drink cost so much more Is that you raising your hand You said the right stage It's so fucking tight up in the front I don't know why we pushed a little further Could you please take your backpack off Do you have to be that tall And the feeling rushes back in The feeling rushes back in And the feeling rushes back in The feeling rushes back in I'm missing the first song I should have pissed way back home I like the smell the of fog I don't know the support act at all And the feeling rushes back in The feeling rushes back in And the feeling rushes back in The feeling rushes back in

Blame the blame blame on shame It's never enough Trust me I won't come through Spite all the pain As I lay in bed The sheets are too heavy Never believed my lovers own true colours With my own eyes Never believed my lovers own true colours With my own eyes I can hold two thoughts inside my head I keep telling myself oh no The duvet is too heavy it's pushing me down The hyper pop in me can't take all the blame Jump and smile Stay for a while Hey quick strike a pose Dance monkey dance for me dance dance dance As I lay in bed The sheets are too heavy Never believed my lovers own true colours With my own eyes Never believed my lovers own true colours With my own eyes I can hold two thoughts inside my head I keep telling myself oh no

This is the last one of the song of the Peckham Files. Tomorrow I am getting the plane to see my parents for Christmas so I think this would make it a fitting ending to this little demo collection. There are a could of songs I quite like but I think over all it is a bit all over the place Kinda like I have been throughout this time making it. I might start another one once I am at my parents house since I will be there for a month, ideally something more stripped down and focused, hopefully some piano songs since I plan to practice a lot more piano once I am there because I want to get better and right now I find it very hard to put my ideas down on the piano. We will see how that goes, I really don't have much gear over there so we will see. Take me back take me back To that beer garden Take me back take me back To those wet benches You tip your ashes on the floor I try to copy you step by step Let me see let me see The breath in the air Let me see let me see Your glowing face Why don't the heaters work We act like they did anyway I wanna feel it I wanna dream it I wanna feel it now now now I wanna dream it now now now Let me feel let me feel The shake in my voice Let me feel let me feel Your eyes on mine The colours come together It all seems to break On now on now we keep going On now on now we keep going I wanna feel it I wanna keep it I wanna feel it now now now I wanna dream it now now now I wanna keep it now now now I wanna dream it now now now