1. |
Please Don't Bend
01:46
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I am not going to lie, this song's lyrics came out at a bit of a dark moment. Coming here to my parents house after all the pandemic stuff happened is all a bit depressing. All normal work stuff has gone caput for me these past few months and that's just left me a bit feeling like a loser. This song is just about grappling with that kind of stuff and looking at a closed envelope and what it represents.
I played and recorded it on my childhood acoustic, the entire song doesn't use the big E string on the guitar so that is where that line came from.
Coming back home
Feeling awfully alone
Love from mother
All in all my parents help
At this age now
Shouldn't I shouldn't I have it all in place
At this time now
Strumming away at a childhood guitar
Cracked wood, broken piece of shit
With an E string missing
Laying on the
Cool quiet basement floor
Hearing mother
Talking away on the phone
At this point now
Shouldn't I shouldn't I have some savings
At this moment
Thinking back at a college degree
Cartridge paper laying there still
Please don't bend
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2. |
Super Saturday
01:32
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I had the melody of this song for a month or so but I never managed to put some lyrics that I liked to it. It had this kind of dread-y circular melody that I didn't really know what to do with it. The chord progression is actually quite unusual for me as it's not really in a specific key. Going from C minor and the to F and G major. Anyway, the lyrics have come out of this frustration from the government's idea that everything should be "back to normal". Branding the Saturday that pubs reopened in England as "Super Saturday".
Get a life, come alive
Feel the heat of summer
Get a life, come alive
Crawl out of your bunker now
Feel the breeze feel the fun
Super Saturday for everyone
Get a life, come alive
Flowers are in blossom
Get a life, come alive
Different shapes and colours
There's a plane flight overhead
Tail colours red, white and blue
Get a life, come alive
Don't forget the lager
Get a life, come alive
Plexi at the counter
Round stickers on the floor
Forget the gel forget the
Dead meat packaged in plastic
Thin cloth fogging up your glasses
I'm not used to so many people anymore
Get a life, come alive
Feel the heat of summer
Get a life, come alive
Crawl out of your bunker now
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3. |
Peak Early
01:54
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Sometimes you write about situations that happened to you a long time ago. This one is such a case. We had a party in the woods and I got a little too drunk. Along with getting too wet at one point I burnt my shoe. I was too cold and kept going closer to the fire and as I was too busy talking to a girl my shoe ended up on fire. I guess I was too absorbed talking with a pretty girl to notice that my foot was on fire.
You saw me naked in the stream
The inebriation helped with the cold
The campfire was burning tall
I don't know how we weren't found out at all
Someone helped me out the mud
It took me ages to find my clothes
The sound system was pounding away
I'd hope you wouldn't see me in this state
I couldn't find my drink
I couldn't find my jeans anywhere
I dreamt of taking you here in the day time
I'd reach out for your hand and hold it tight
You wouldn't believe what I'd have to say
We'd sit in the grass and stare away
Talking about the boats talking about the geese
Silhouette by the water silhouette by the trees
You're alway late at parties
Why does the time I peak early
be the exception
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4. |
sidney gish ripoff2
02:19
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I've always liked meta songwriting, but for some reason I have always thought I couldn't do it very well, and maybe I still can't you can be the judge. This melody and the initial two lines I had from a while back, actually from last year and only recently I rediscovered the demo of it and figured I should flesh it out. I was listening to a lot of Sidney Gish at the time and in my head it was a ripoff of her style. Didn't really pan out that way and I suppose that is the point.
Is this just a ripoff or I'm I singing from the heart?
I can't tell the difference anymore
I'm sorry Sidney please forgive me
Oh help me I need a connection
Oh help me I'll change my inflextion
Is this just a ripoff or I'm I singing nothing but the truth
The line seems to blur more and more
Oh fuck you is this really a few cents off
Oh fuck you does it really make a difference for you
I'm probably just bitter now of running in circles
Do we really need this bridge for the verses
I think I've started to run out of things to say
But I I keep chugging at it
I I keep chipping at it
I I keep trucking at it Now
And again and again and
Is this just a ripoff or an another silly sad attempt
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At making something new today that was here yesterday
At all
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5. |
River Song
02:36
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I don't know what it is about writing songs involving bodies of water but there you go. Particularly having an embarrassing experience involving a body of water. I know for these songs I was planing to have a super stripped down sound but this was a year old or something song that I only had one verse for. I listened to it today by accident while going through some old files and I figured I could make this one the song of the day.
Help me break the spell
Help me leave the well
Drown me into sleep
Hold me to the weeds
I see you by the stones
I feel it to the bone
Rushing past my feet
Calling me here
Hold up river swan
Hold up for me
Cut my foot on the edge
See the burst of red
Shoot right up to the brain
Bite my tongue hold the pain
I see you by the trees
Are they laughing at me
The blood starts to thin
Downstream
Hold up, I want to know
Hold up, what's your name?
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6. |
TV
01:54
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This song is a think back at a few months ago when I was stuck in quarantine. This one came out a little wonky but hey it is what it is.
The beads of sweat are coming down again
It's only so much the skylight opens
There's only so many teas one can make
The empty bottles start to pile up
How much TV does one have to watch
To forget how much TV they are watching
I start to become someone else
You say you don't remember yourself
The same feeling creeps in
I can't follow the dialog
I know it's hard to be alone
I know it's hard to keep it up
Sometimes I want to shut it all off
Sit back relax watch another episode
The same thoughts creep in
I can't follow the subtitles
I just want to be another part of me
I wanna be another part of me
I wanna be another part of me
I wanna be another part of me
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7. |
I Had A Dream Last Night
03:38
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Last night I had a dream about someone that I haven't spoken to in like 3 years. It kinda got me nostalgic and on my morning walk I started thinking too much about the past. These kind of dreams tend to do that to me. It's strange, I think my ultimate fantasy is to wake up one day and be like more than 10 years young and just fix all my mistakes. It's strange, I don't even think I've messed up that bad, but I guess I like the idea of ironing out all my problems. But let's face it, if that actually became a reality I'd probably mess up just as much as I have the first time around so I'd be back to square one.
I had a dream I held you hand
You face has started to blur
You seemed to be quiet and despondent
I smiled too much and kept close
We waited by the sidewalk
Your friends didn't even bother to show up
My friends stood around and looked alarmed
I don't know what they were worried about
It made me think of how I fucked it up
It made me think of what I got right
I didn't offer you a drink
You laughed at my jokes
I was too drunk to stick around
You sat me with
I always wear the same old clothes
You pulled too hard at my hoodie string
I can't, I can't, seem to, let go
I can't, I can't, seem to, let go
I had similar dreams in the past
They make me sad and think back
You seem quiet in all of them
I don't know how to cheer you up
It made me think of when I fucked it up
It made me think of what did right
Helping you out with the printing
Talking to you on the phone
Sharing all of my feelings way to late
Being happy I did anyway
You came to my party and meet your new boyfriend
I've heard you broke up with that prick
I still have his polaroid somewhere
He was wearing sunglasses indoors
I can't, I can't, seem to, let go
I can't, I can't, seem to, let go
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8. |
Yearbook
02:29
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Today was a really tough one for the "creative juices". I tried starting out this morning trying to re-write lyrics to an old song that had some shitty non-sense lyrics and nothing came of that. I tried this way and that and then I gave up and said "fuck it, I'll just try another song". I hit a wall there too, this other song that had place holder lyrics I was stuck on it too. For neither of them I couldn't figure out what the songs should be about. I tried a third song and even that to no avail. I was almost ready to give up and as I was lying on my bed I started strumming my guitar and came up with the basic guitar pattern of this song. Being at my parents house I noticed my high school yearbook on the shelf yesterday and looked it through. And so pushing and pulling I managed to get something out, it was difficult and I am not completely happy with the end result but there you go. This song is some of the thoughts that went through my mind as I went through that yearbook.
Join the faces to the names
They seem frozen on the page
First time I said them out loud
In some years now
Reading through the signatures
"We've had some laughs in math"
Well I'm not sure about that
But you're probably right
And I still feel the need to prove myself
To the people who don't even remember me well
And I still feel the need to prove them wrong
On suspicions they have never had at all
We get to the dreaded page
Its the picture next to James
Row three column five
You're still frozen in time
I get shot right back
To when I saw you last
Waiting nervously by the pool
He said I looked fat
And I still feel the need to prove myself
To the people who don't even remember me well
And I still feel the need to prove them wrong
On suspicions they have never had at all
I'd wonder who you'd be
If you didn't become me
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9. |
Down Down Down
02:14
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Yesterday I was feeling this song pretty hard. I wrote it today but I guess I just wrote down what I was feeling now. Sometimes the idea of doing almost anything feels like a unsurmountable task.
When the numbers by the squares
Feel more like a chore than anything else
I'll get on it, later
I can't do anything for myself
Let alone something for anybody else
Today feels like a right off
The herculean tasks of old
A shower, toothbrush and a empty bottle
Of shampoo
It feels like the morning
but my phone doesn't seem to agree with me
Empty cans sitting by the floor
Next to me
In my confusing I just stare up
At the ceiling
I think I'll just continue to lie here
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
Down down down down
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10. |
Murmur
01:46
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I am not going to lie, today I didn't think I was going to make it writing a song. The morning started out badly where I didn't end up doing my morning walk due to laziness and then the entire time until lunch I just didn't do anything and watch youtube videos. In the afternoon I got some other work done and then I randomly went back upstairs thinking "oh maybe I might but probably not". I was already feeling the anticipation of disappointment, but strangely enough I started playing the fingerpicking pattern of this song and it quickly came out. A little mood poem about two people's private conversation. It's been really hot here and I have been sweating (literally) every second of writing and recording this song.
The sun seeps in through the leaves
I get back up as it's getting itchy
I check my jeans for a stain
I check my jeans for a stain
You say you come here to be alone
I feel intrusive I shouldn't have come
You say it's ok this time
You say it's ok this time
I don't think you've shown anyone
The nook in the trees, the golden sun
You whistle away to your song
You whistle away to your song
It's starts with a murmur but I know you mean it
You've rehearsed it over again and again
It's not the truth that hurts
But the simplicity of your words
The simplicity of your words
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11. |
I Smell Of Smoke
03:16
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I hope this one is quite self explanatory. I've been in this situation too any times. You are coming home from a party or something and it's cold, its miserable and you're groggy. Why is London so big? I think I kinda like this one, I might end up re-recording it properly and fixing a few lyrics here and there.
I wish you'd call me when I'm drunk
Then I'd never be alone
I wish you'd call me when down
And sooth me out
Walking through these empty streets
I didn't bring a jacket
I guess that's my fault
I wish you'd call me when I'm stuck
Waiting here at this bus stop
i wish I could just hear your voice
Instead of that car alarm
Google maps has fucked me over again
I'll never you ever again
But I got to make it back home
I got to make it back home
Yes I gotta make it back home
Somehow
I wish you'd call me as I walk
Was it really worth it
I wish you'd talk about your day
And I'll forget mine
House party are hit an miss
I smell of smoke, I don't smoke
I've nursed a beer for to long
Fuck I've lost my flask
What was James on?
What did his friend go on about?
Why didn't you come?
I only came because I though you were coming too
But I got to make it back home
Yes I got to make it back home
Yes I got to make it back home
Somehow
London can sure punch you the face
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12. |
Primark Shoes
02:09
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This song comes from a trip I did to see someone a few years ago. Back then the idea that a few years later I would write a song about seeing this person at Gare du Nord in Paris would have sounded ridiculous. Maybe I should try to dig a bit deeper in trying to write about my past rather than my more recent past. I feel like this song is a song that I should flesh out a bit more with a proper rock band type arrangement. I should also add a chorus and fix some of the awkward lines.
I bought a ticket
It was a quick impulse decision but it seems
I'm going to Paris, I'm going to see you
I wonder if your hair is still long
But I can't keep up doing nothing feeling nothing
All of the time
And I can't keep up doing something feeling nothing
All the rest
You asked me to buy special cigarettes
The kind you don't have there
I thought they were all the same
Arn't they all equally bad
But I can't keep up building something feeling nothing
All of the time
And I should keep up building something
Having it all blow up
You'll never know this song is about you
Song is about you
Song is about you
You'll never know this song is about you
Maybe that's for the best
I'm finally feeling something
As I see you waiting there
You compliment my shoes
Nobody has ever liked these terrible shoes
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13. |
Someone Somewhere
03:18
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I've missed a few days, these past few days I travelled back from my parents house to my room in London. Not going to lie I became a bit lazy particularly these past two days and I did the bare minimum to get on with my day and that kinda what's the song is about really. That and how I and I think a lot of people have been feeling during lockdown and in isolation in general. But now that I am back in London I think I am going to start a new demo series as I feel this one has run it's corse and done what it was supposed to do. Since I have access to my practice space I will probably start recording some demos of louder faster paced songs.
It's hard to tell you
All of the truth
When your behind the screen
It's hard to let you know
When you don't ask
So directly
As I pace up and down my room
And I look for something to focus on
Let me be somewhere
With someone other than myself
Let me be somewhere
With someone other than myself
Cause I'm here but I not at all
Yes I'm here but I not at all
It takes much longer now
To reply
To text messages
Those numbers fill me up
With dread
More than anything else
As I type something out and erase it
I'm much more comfortable with a joke instead
Let me be somewhere
With someone other than myself
Let me be somewhere
With someone other than myself
Cause I'm here but I not at all
Yes I'm here but I not at all
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14. |
A Little Bit Better
01:51
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I wish it could all stop right now
I'd say you have enough
It sure doesn't seem fair at all
As you're lying there oh so tired
I heard it sure be over by now
I wish I could share some of your burden
I wish I could just take it out and make you
A little bit better
I wish could make you a little bit better
I wish could make you a little bit better
I wish could make you a little bit better
I wish could make you a little bit better
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